Year of Loss

There is something about New Year's Day that is so hopeful.

Last year, at the beginning of 2013 I was pumped.
I welcomed in the New Year with optimism and enthusiasm. 
It was like a new relationship that moved too quickly.
I believed it was special. But in the end, the year broke my heart.


It was a year of profound loss.
I lost friends. I watched friends watch loved ones suffer and be taken away.
I lost a relationship without warning, watched dreams vanish like steam on a mirror.


So, 2014, please understand if I am more than a little tentative.
Let's take our time. Let's not make promises we can't keep.
Let's get to know each other.
Let's be kind. 

Let's all make it out alive.

first sunrise of 2014